I did it! I'm not totally convinced that I'm sure why I decided to do it though. My mind races with reasons as I type this...maybe it's because I like a change or maybe it's due to turning 35 next week. It could have something to do with wanting to feel my bald head, wanting luxurious natural curls, or being tired some of the same blonde hair/style, or it could be my upcoming European holiday has me losing it.
Out of all of these different reasons, I think the primary one is a need to discover my natural hair. I've had a relaxer since the 3rd grade. My daughter is currently in the 3rd grade, she is 8, so that makes nearly 30 years of chemicals. What the hell am I hiding under there? I need to find out!
To prepare myself I spent a lot of time surfing the web searching different hair types and wondering which type is mine. I loved looking at the coils, curls, and organic beauty of the women's hair with particular interest to TWA (teeny weeny afros).
I have always loved short hair. My hair idols are Halle Berry, Nia Long, Monica and Toni Braxton. Their hair can't compete with their flawless beauty, and the confidence to know it and show it is what makes me love them. Short hair compliments sex appeal to me, and it shows that your hair is as an accessory, not you. The confidence and fierceness Halle, Nia, Monica, and Toni exude is how I want to feel in a natural state. Hopefully, I can move toward the ladies fashion sense and workout regime too, but it's one step at a time right now (a girl is wishing!).
I told my husband my plan to go short and natural, and he was intrigued. If you have been reading my blog, then you know he is from Scotland. Yes, the beautiful green cold place where the guys wear kilts (for a formal occasion). In Scotland, there aren't many blacks, so Donald has very limited experience with black hair culture. One of the many reasons why I love my him so much is because he will take the time to discover what I care about, including my hair. He knew this hair cutting thing is a big decision for black women and he took the time to read a couple of articles about the big chop. The day of my haircut he talked to me about an article he read where it discusses the emotional stages of the big chop. I assured him that I didn't qualify for those stages since my hair barely covers my ears. Side note - it's day 5 and no emotional hair problems here.
The new cut has me feeling absolutely amazing. Comfortable. Very very comfortable and I love co-washing and rubbing my hands over my head. I feel every bit of confident, beautiful, and free - for now.
I'm looking forward to watching my dedication play out. Let's see how long I can keep this look up.